Friday, October 12, 2018
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My Dear cousin Brian, I never thought I'd had to be writing this right now. Not until we were old. I know after our conversations that you were sad and hurting. We all are in some way. Our family have lost the rocks that kept it all together. I know what your soul desired and what you hoped for but sometimes we have to know that some are just not capable or don't know how to give us what we need. I apologize. Yes! i do. For the many arguments that we had and apologized later. You always said I love you and sorry. Some of the best things that I remember about you was when I was a kid. You always defended me. Picked me up and held me when I cried and made me feel safe. You put me in my place when I needed it but I knew it was out of love in your own way. Noone is perfect and I pray that your soul is at peace and no longer fighting with anything that caused you pain. I may be typing these words but I am at a loss. I've lost alot of people but this is by far one of those most painful. You were intelligent, a super hero to me as a kid, you loved God and other people that knew you loved you and knew your talents. I never cared what your weaknesses were, I never judged you and to me you were always a superstar and always will be a superstar. I am beside myself....remembering the great times watching my older cousins play ball at family reunions and you giving me advice as a grown up. I have learn and lost alot with you being gone. You were 20 mins away. Yes. i have a life, am busy and got caught up in my own things but I do not have an excuse not to have faught for you. Just as you did for me. Your concerns, your worries and your pain was evident. I have it too. I just wish that you understand and believed how loved and important you really were. I understand that some things just break the straw on the camels back and I know you were tired. God will bring peace to you, allow to to fly and protect your as as your protected my pain when I needed you there. My Dearest Cousin Brian, I will forever remember the good and I promised you to make peace and leave negativity behind. You stated that noone...even I am not perfect and you were so right and to forgive. I have forgiven. I have grown. Metaphorically, I have always been your bratty little cousin holding on to your coat tail. I will forever hold on to you. I will cherish the good times and ration the bad. I still can't believe this is true. I love you and will always keep you close to my heart. Thank you for all the love you have shown me and I will always love you my dear cousin. We are blood. A bond that will NEVER! Be broken. Tears and saddness. I pray that our families will gst through this and that it will get easier on your parents. After all. Kids don"t come with instructions. I can never say goodbye but I can say that you will be saddly missed by your little pain in the tail cousin with the bratty attitude and pig tails. Love you deeply Brian. Love, Tammi
Thomas E. May, Founder 1946-2022